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10-15-2015, 12:34 AM #1
Susan sweetie, thank you for the sweet words, but don't be sorry for me in what was my miserable times. What happened to me then and what I went through got me to where I am now. I will never be what I was in my younger days but my Psychiatrist and former Therapist have told me that I have grown a lot - and I know I have improved some too. I don't think I'll ever be fearless in crowds or with my other triggers, but right now I have a home, a cat, writing novels and crochet to keep me busy. I give crochet away or do orders if so inclined and I hope soon I can self-publish the first book in the series I wrote. I have bad days but I've lived through them and expect to keep doing so with the help I have and will continue to get as long as my insurance is active. I've made it so far, I'm not attempting suicide tho I think about it; when it gets bad I call for help and pick up my hook again while playing my favorite music pieces over and over. I have specific instrumental and vocal pieces that help lift me from the dark places and the crochet gives my fingers something to do other than hurt myself.
But I think I'd like to have a nice mom. Mine wasn't, she was horrid, and even now at my age I envy those who miss their departed mothers and wish they could have one more time with them again. I don't; I'm glad she's gone, she was that bad. Same with the sperm donor. Have always wished I had a set of good parents, how different my life might have been!
And our winter is predicted to be cold and wild, thanks for the warm wishes though! I shall bundle up.
Yours, Patt.
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