Hi, Anniem. Glad to meet you. You came to the right place for encouragement and people who want to help. I haven't been here long, but the people I've met are great. A lot of us pray for each other and will be blessed to pray for you and your husband. Trust in the Lord. Tell Him what you need and how you're feeling. And be patient. He knows best. What you have been going through will strengthen you spiritually, emotionally, and in many other ways as well. Come here whenever you want to talk. Someone will get back to you. In the meantime, do you read or garden? What crochet item are you working on? Tell us something about yourself. I learned to crochet about 60 years ago. I was 10 at the time. I crochet scarves and caps for homeless or needy people.