this past november I lost my youngest son Zaak not to death but hate He has decided that I was the worst mother ever and walked out of my life forever.How do move forward?I mean can I mourn my loss knowing that he's alive and well across town? I am struggling here and to top it off this morning at 2:20am my 10th grandson was born another break in my heart cause I will never hold him in my arms or see him other than in pictures.Oh did I mention that my son and his girlfriend have also started teaching my 4 yr old grandson to hate me.